Lies for Peace

When you leave the country, you learn to lie.

When you were 17 and leaving the 254 borders for the first time, heading out on a plane to the land of milk and honey, nobody warned you that it was not ALL milk and honey. More like really bad mala and horribly made molasses syrup. At first glance, it looks manageable but the longer you stay out and involved in the crazy cycle of trying to better yourself, the more you realize that it’s not as you believed when you were in your teens.

When you first land, everything amazes you. The blinking man who lives in that spot beside or under the traffic light signal who beckons you to cross when it is safe and, also, turns into a blinking hand that commands you to stop when it is unsafe for you to cross the road. When you go to the supermarket for the first time and you find yourself face to face with rows upon rows of different cheeses or cereal brands, and you are flabbergasted because you normally, for breakfast, drink black tea with a piece of Elliot’s bread, and cheese has never been a major part of your breakfast adventures.

The land of milk and honey is, indeed, quite different from what they say. They being some unknown entity that makes you think that stepping out from beyond your borders is akin to stepping into a golden river that is overflowing with pearls, diamonds and that elusive perfectly roasted chicken for dinner or perfectly fitted evening dress. Newsflash: In the U.S, the dresses don’t fit perfectly every single time, and the chicken may be a tad dry or undercooked every so often. And, no, there is no golden river filled with gems.

I remember going to Jack-in-the-Box for the first time, on my first night in the United States, and I got a cheeseburger that I nibbled at, hesitatingly, as cheese and I were not bosom buddies. I promptly threw up ten minutes after completing it but they reassured me, ‘Do not worry, you shall get used to it.’ The first lie. I never did. Continue reading

Sometimes Craigslist Posts Are Spot On…

Found this gem on Craigslist. Yes, I troll CL sometimes…looking for jobs, funnyisms and the occasional tennis partner or apartment.

Stranger outside Big Star who told me you hoped I would die on my bike

You: Older gentleman in business casual, liquor on breath, sense of self worth fueled by demeaning other people

Me: Diminutive girl with light purple bike, grey helmet, still hopeful, heart hurting

Remember me?

I shouted at you and your friends to get out of the bike lane and was met by a chorus of jeers. I turned around, got off my bike, and politely asked that you and your friends and your wife, who was holding your beautiful, sleepy tow-headed child, if you could move your conversation from the bike lane to the sidewalk so other people on bikes wouldn’t have to swerve around you into traffic, and so you wouldn’t be at risk of getting hit by a less attentive cyclist.

I said please and thank you. I called you sir. You called me an entitled bitch and told me the world would be a better place without me and people like me.

Your friends laughed while tears of shame and anger burned in my eyes.

Your wife smiled and shrugged when you told me you hoped I got hit by a semi and splattered all over the street.

You told me that pedestrians have the right of way no matter what*, and that I was wrong, and that I would get what was coming to me.

Your child looked at me with big, round, curious eyes, and began the lifelong process of learning how to treat other humans like garbage.

I hope you wake up tomorrow in your comfortable bed, a slight hangover creeping into your graying temples. I hope that you feel gravity wearing on your bones, every step to your bathroom sink a shuffling chore, the repetition, the mundanity of your life exhausting from the moment you wake up. I hope you splash your face with cool water and look into the mirror, bleary, and see your reflection, and see yourself as I saw you, your entitlement, your brazen lack of empathy, your inability to consider the implication of your actions. I hope your son clings to your leg, rubbing the sleep from his eyes, and begs you to give him a horsey ride even though now he is getting too big. I hope that you feel a pang of regret, even just a twinge, thinking about his bearing silent witness to your verbal abuse of a stranger.

I hope you tell him to try his best to be nice to people, even when they aren’t always nice back, just like my father told me.

I hope he listens.

* Chicago municipal code:
9-60-050 Pedestrian to yield right-of-way when.
(a) Every pedestrian crossing a roadway at any point other than within a marked crosswalk shall yield the right-of-way to all vehicles upon the roadway.

9-60-060 Pedestrian crossing.
(a) No pedestrian shall cross a roadway at any place other than by a route at right angles to the curb or by the shortest route to the opposite curb except in a marked crosswalk.
(b) No pedestrian shall suddenly leave a curb or other place of safety and walk or run into the path of a vehicle which is so close that it is impossible for the driver to yield.

9-60-120 Pedestrians to exercise due care.
Nothing in this chapter shall relieve a pedestrian from the duty of exercising due care [the conduct that a reasonable man or woman will exercise in a particular situation, in looking out for the safety of others].

VJing: Engaging Ugandan youth in Technology for Development

I really like this idea. In Public Health, the approach is always ‘community-based’ focused, meaning use what the community is comfortable with to put your message across. No need to adapt colonial structures of impressing upon people i.e. coming in and using what YOU are used to in the Western world to try and get behavior change or public health messages across. Really appreciate the approach highlighted in this article – using local culture to share public health messages…

Randoms

Making: Plans for the end of next month when I move. Again.

Cooking: Chapatis and eggplant stew.

Drinking: Tea. Green, Mint and Black.

Reading: African Love Stories; An Anthology – compiled by Ama Ata Aidoo.

Wanting: A permanent job in EM.

Playing: Sauti Sol ‘Sura Yako’

Wasting: My white sneakers that I just bought to play tennis on a CLAY court. Hell.

Sewing: Left my machine in Los Angeles so…nada for now.

Wishing: A permanent job. Anywhere.

Enjoying: My last few days in ET.

Liking: The tennis courts ten minutes walk from my house in ET

Wondering: Why men can be such idiots.

Loving: My Bounty chocolate addiction. Two daily for the past week. It’s been a rough week.

Hoping: For the best in my life.

Marveling: The amount of b*llsh*t that women will put up with, in the name of being nice.

Needing: A break.

Smelling: My Forever21 Blackberry Vanilla lotion – just washed my hands, lotioned up…

Wearing: Black skinny jeans, mint green ruffled shirt and a leopard print scarf. And my cheap Black moccies.

Following: Life and Style personalities

Noticing: That my time here is almost up. Need to go out some more!

Knowing: I need to be kinder to myself.

Thinking: About how to wrap up my final project here at work…things just got changed around yesterday…

Feeling: Lonely…work is hella busy, no time for kicking back.

Bookmarking: Job boards…

Opening: my chapstick. Chapped lips are a no-no.

Giggling: Never.