November Goodbyes

2022/11/06 by mkhana

It’s been a dozen years now. The date approaches, nerves and anxiety piling on I always expect November to be crappy because it is the month that I said goodbye to you as you were lowered into the ground. I try hard to smile and ‘think positive’ like everyone on Instagram says to do… But […]

Bila Finesse

2020/11/10 by mkhana

Is it weird that it doesn’t hurt as much as it did ten years ago when your sister called in the velvet of night with heartbreak in her voice and pain in her cries to tell me you were no more? I googled Grief and How Long It Lasts to get an idea of when […]

Decade

2020/11/06 by mkhana

Well, it’s almost ten years now… four more days unbelievable how time has floated by. My tears dried up over the years, but a crack still in my heart from a loss so unexpected. Time has covered up the crack not very well but it tries what remains, I can’t describe. A decade ago, death […]

Brave

2020/09/23 by mkhana

It’s a story I could not tell before, my tongue tied by a delicate bow of velvet grief So smooth against my heart for the last decade that I hardly noticed the crack in it as much, the bow covering my entire heart, crack and all. That I almost forgot. Reminded only and often by […]

Chadwick.

2020/08/30 by mkhana

It was eating him from the inside out. Four years of a privately waged battle that we knew nothing about, watching speculations and gossip fly about as his physicality drained from him right in front of us. Still, he remained silent. And the world talked. Like it typically does. It filled in blanks that it […]

Lulu

2020/06/10 by mkhana

Lulu is no more. The compound is very quiet. He hasn’t noticed. The guard and the nanny whisper about her, motioning silence with a finger on their closed mouth Hush. He kicks the football about, But does not notice the lack of barks. Lulu was escorted to beyond some unknown gates And what we have […]